Reasons V. Feelings

I told a friend tonight that "there's a reason for my feelings and feelings for my reasons..." when conversing about a decision I had made this weekend about a recent interest. Of course, we all know the saying, "Everything happens for a reason" but it's our reaction to event and our feelings that swarm us before, during and after that reason occurs. I hope I can make sense of that all now...

I have had a interest in a particular boy since I was 15. We dated for over a year and parted ways before our senior year in high school. I was busy. He was busy. It was a bad break up for me since he was my first true love. Hopefully, my parents aren't rolling their eyes about me putting my emotions and thoughts to y'all via internet but HEY! It's my blog... Anyways... We became friends again while I was away and he stayed in EC. Little to know, the boy would send me beautiful flowers the day after Valentine's Day this year and tried to rekindle the relationship. Long story short, I was putting all my heart, mind & soul (110 percent!) into trying to get this boy to really commit but I was only getting 10% back. I'm not going to badmouth him at all because he is a hard-working gentleman but...I'm gonna stop there.

Everything happens for a reason...

And that is why I have TWO awesome opportunities to take my mind off the heartache!

1 - I am currently working for Dr. Melissa Kainer Erwin, M.D., P.A. for the summer. I'm not sure how long I will be with her but it was a week today since I started. It's been a whirlwind of a week that's kept me busy all day, learning new things, problem solving, communicating, making friends, and coming home very tired and weary of answering another telephone until the next day. I hope that I can make her proud every day with the accomplishment of helping her and the staff as well as performing above and beyond what I thought myself could do in her office. She also has my brain gears turning about really going for the gold...as in grad school gold. So let's just I love it there and my parents love her even more since she's making those gears turn!

2 - I am a part of a diverse group of young adults who will be putting on a Young Adult ACTS Retreat in August. I had signed up to get picked for team earlier this year and prayed off and on about it. I'm very blessed to be able to team and collaborate with others on not only our faith but cohesion of ideas, personalities, and schedules. It's hard to put this kind of retreat on with college-age kids and slightly older. The team is made up of 19-28 year old's. I feel once we get more comfortable with each other, it's going to be a lot of fun and fellowship. I've been able to meet new people and work with friends I haven't talked to in a few years. It makes me really want to stop up my faith game to see what the Big Man upstairs has in store for me.

Everything happens for a reason...

So from broken atria & ventricles to ringing of the ears to rekindled spirits...no matter what, I just need to trust in the Lord, believe in myself, and keep striving for the better outcome whether good or bad things get in my way. I talk to a lot of friends about the different paths the Lord puts in front of us. It is our decision to chose the one that fits us best at the point and time. We may stumble but that's why we have Him to help us get back in the saddle. One of my favorite Christian songs is Walk by Faith by Jeremy Camp. I belt it out whenever I need a little pick-me-up. Do me a favor and look up the lyrics or watch it on YouTube or listen on iTunes - whatever suits you best.

Thank you for reading to my wordy fingers. I wish y'all a blessed Memorial Weekend and safe travels.

Gig 'em & God Bless - AC