Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

My body is my biggest insecurity. This picture is from Shelby's volleyball playoffs her senior year. My pants are really tight. You can see my belly rolls and my cheeks are chubby.

When I started high school, I weighed almost 200 pounds. I was a chunky monkey and have printed picture to prove it. When I graduated from high school, I weight 150. It was an up and down four years but I did it. I when down 2 sizes and sometimes could share clothes with Shelby who was a size smaller than I.

Freshman year of college (also pictured above) I gained the freshman 15 plus some. It was difficult but when I moved out of the apartment complex where I was living and started working for the softball team. It pushed me to become more health conscious and in-shape. I dropped most of it by the fall of my sophomore semester. I got close to my weight in high school and the next summer, I bought a bikini. I try to wear it proudly but I'm still very self conscious. I love my arms and legs but my tummy is still a bit jiggly. I hope my yoga and strength training class can help me change that this fall!

These is my friends Laura Reyna and Deanna Bosse at our National 4-H Conference in Atlanta. I've had this dress since high school but it still fits and is a bit loose so even better! It's a size 8 from Talbots so it makes me happy hahaha

I chose this picture because I love it and I love Stacey Gillis. What beautiful women we are! I wanted to point out my face is slender and I have no boobs. I'm ok with that most of the time. This picture also makes me angry because this was in April at Shelby's birthday party. I love my newly colored and LONG hair! I cut it in June. I'm very upset because I didn't realize how much I loved my long hair. My hairdresser talked me into it and agreed to let go of 4+ inches and lots of layers. Oh well...it grows back...slowly

Moral to the story: I know that we are created in God's image but I am very self-conscious about my body image. Yes, I have a sweet tooth. Yes, I love to eat healthy because it makes me feel good. Yes, I am lazy but I have been super busy with summer stuff and have been too tired to work out.